Wednesday, December 26, 2012
"boleh tak bila aku tutup mata dan bila buka semuanya dah lepas.aku x jawab periksa"
if anyone could wish for anything,this would be the top rated wish aku rase.
urrghh this is killing me.
asked myself, kenapa tak ambil tessl je at first,but then again who's to be blamed?i chose this myself kenapa kau nak menangis sekarang gila?
you got yourself into this trouble, then find your way out of it.
tho there's only one way.
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Friday, December 21, 2012
i guess that's the highlight of my day.
Monday, December 10, 2012
Thursday, December 6, 2012
the reason why i love imagining living in london and that is obviously my dream DUH is because i wanna feel the feeling i felt when i went there with my family.my dad.london is the place i wanna be in.i will be in.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Friday, November 23, 2012
Monday, November 19, 2012
i miss someone pointing on the right way.
i miss the support.
i miss the advices.
i miss the hugs.
i miss the jokes.
i miss the night kisses.
i miss the switching off lights routine.
i miss saturday morning.
i miss long holidays.
i miss visiting places.
i miss a hand to hold.
i miss family outing.
i miss family dinners.
i miss running to the door to greet you home.
i miss the concerns.
i miss a leader.
i miss a guy in my life.
i miss everything about you ayah. :(
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
i told myself not to write about this book but i couldn't contain myself.i'm just so excited but as i read it,i only kept a straight face whilst my inner goddess in jumping up with joy.it's not the excessive amount of sex that they're having i'm happy about.but how this man who is so reluctant in having an emotional relationship and is oh so cold above the surface could surrender himself with pain just to make this girl happy.it's so touching.i cried countless times but most of the time i was just being impassive.it is certainly a well written novel and the best part is, it's a trilogy.i've done reading the first two and now i'm down with one more.though i'd be so sad if i'm done with the last one.
saying that i'm in love with christian grey wouldn't be an odd thing, as everyone feels the same.this book is just exciting to read.if this were real.i'd really like to see how christian really looks like.he sounds scrumptiously delicious and toxically hot.but of it all,he's got a huge heart very huge that half of it is filled with his dark secret and insecurities.
writing this down doesn't give me the slightest gratification to what my eyes just witnessed.this book is more than what i could describe it to be.some may say i'm exaggerating well maybe -.- but try.try diving in and prove me wrong.
i really can't comment much as i'm not done reading the last.but i'm sure it'll take my feet off the ground as what the fist two has done to me.i was on cloud nine.the last is thicker than the first two but imma try my best to finish it asap.i can't wait myself :)
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Thursday, November 1, 2012
but first i have to make sure that he doesnt see me approaching him.so i should be above him or behind him.the idea is to take him to a dark road and beat the shit out of him until he like past out and vividly draw something on his face with this sharp blade.
and when he's up he'd be like 'why can't i see anything' and stuff and imma be like 'you're blind douchebag!that's why' and imma be lolling and rolling.he'd scream so loud and go to some crowded place and be like ' help me sir,someone did this to me,i can't see' while crying like a baby.he'll take a taxi home and regret his whole life.
haaaa that feels so good.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Monday, October 22, 2012
Saturday, October 20, 2012
sometimes i feel stupid.
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Monday, September 3, 2012
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Friday, August 24, 2012
Saturday, August 4, 2012
Friday, August 3, 2012
Friday, July 27, 2012
Friday, July 20, 2012
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Friday, June 29, 2012
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Friday, June 15, 2012
Monday, June 11, 2012
Sunday, June 10, 2012
- you can't always get what you want
- life is not according to you
- you will cry at any end of a day
- life is not perfect
- you can't always be happy
- everyone doesnt like you,only a few.
- people come and go and you have to cope with the sadness
- people change,places do too and so does weather.
- not all guys can be trusted
- chances are,you will not get the nice ones
- people hate you for no reason
- people like you for no reason
- you are beautiful only to you but not to people
- you need friends,and fuck to those who said you dont need one
- bitches are bitches
- guys will ignore you if you open up to them,and no it's not like in the movies.
- when life hands you lemon,don't take it.
- be happy and forget what people think
- you are actually important to your haters,cause you are their life,w/o you,they have no main subject and so they will fail in life.
- smile,fake,slap,backstab,laugh sarcastically or speak in such tone, do whatever hell did marilyn monroe do,these are just virtues of surviving life.
- do not be too nice,too clod or too proud.
- then how should you act?figure it out.
- people will come up to you and say mean things,you smile,and walk away.
- no no need to flip your hair.
- people don't like to smile and so don't smile randomly to people.
- be skinny cause you'll be more popular and oh be beautiful,but if you're not,maybe do something w your personality.if it sucks,then good luck.
- dress appropriately,no showing a lot of skins.you'll get raped.
- the number 23 is not important.so don't be obsessed with it.
- ignore number 28.
- be happy with your life as it is,cause no matter what you do to yourself,only you could change the story of your life and only you could face it.life is like a fairytale,except,you are the author.so why wanna live in suffer when you can make it with colors?though yes,storm and stone and stick will be thrown to you but the hell,you could always backspace it or erase it.always start new each day.
you are welcome with these guidelines.alhamdulillah,i get to be in a roller coaster and actually feel the burden and the hate and the annoyance and the sarcasm and and and more.yes i get to be in the "wild ride" if you may. :)
thank you all for the wishes :) i feel loved.thank you
to those who have just started life,good luck finding your way out.
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Monday, May 21, 2012
Sunday, May 20, 2012
this happened on the 11th of september 2001.back when i was only 9 years old.i knew about this on the news we were watching at pulau tioman.a family trip.
the sentence in that picture "what if it never happened?would the world be any different?"
to me personally,i think yes.the world would've been a much peaceful planet if it weren't because of this tragedy.by this,the americans hated the muslim.they called us terrorists.our people were tortured and was treated rudely by their citizen. Afghanistan and iraq were victims in this case.thousands of people were killed.kids?adults?grandparents?u name it.
i imagine that the world would be a better place because if this didn't happen,iraq and Afghanistan wouldn't have lost people from their country.all families would be perfectly blessed with what God had given to them.Bush wouldn't be a great president(based on the people of america) because he couldn't show his powers if this didn't happen.there would be no hate.no one would have died in that building.no family would live in grieve.the world trade centre would still be the tallest building.
but what matter now is that,it happened.no one can change history.people died.afganistan and iraq lived in hell.people of america have paid for what they thought we did.they are now happy.
however,in Quran,everything has been written.all of these things should happen.and it did.can we blame God?no.what we can do is just ask ourselves and that's quite it.everything again,happens for a reason.what reason that Afghanistan and iraq had to go through hell?their people died in shahid.i'd take that as one of the positive sides.although,we don't really know why this happened,but us muslim take this as a sign.
let Allah do His job.and let us pray and thank Him for our peaceful country.alhamdulillah.
Friday, May 18, 2012
Sunday, May 13, 2012
last friday,saturday and sunday,i became a bailiff.in a court.in the uk.sitting beside the judge.and saying "all rise,the court is now in session".yes people i was the bailiff.i get to yell at people for talking inside the court,i get to make the i'll-eat-you-up eye.
all the above are total nonsense.i didn't went to uk just to be a bailiff for 3 days.nope i didnt.cause if i did,i wouldn't have had the time to get to class on monday which i obviously did came on monday having that i'm living no where above 200 km from my faculty and if any of you,which i doubt,believed me.you should know where you stand. lol
okay i'm literally not making any sense.okay so i became the bailiff for the mooting club,it was soooo soooo sooo tiring weh.but imma get my sijil insyaallah.and i dont wanna talk about it lah.
pastu jumaat lepas i went to war crimes tribunal :) i had funnnn superrr funnn :) okay mals nak type tetiba rase marah -.-
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Thursday, May 3, 2012
sometimes when you wanna tell things to people,people tend to judge you.i get that all the time.can't i be vulnerable for once?things i share are things that i don't consider showing off but they are things that i've gone through.don't blame my past.don't roll your eyes on me saying that you're tired of my stories.my intentions are clean.
yes it's impossible for people to get what i get,but maybe it's my luck.you really wanna question God's plans?then it's up to you.
besides,i don't get those special treatments anymore.
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
i wish i had someone to call,to text and to talk to when i'm feeling alone.but people today don't really like listening.
sometimes i feel so lonely that i could cry out of emptiness.i wanna say i miss you but i'm scared you'd ignore me T_T
yesterday,i procrastinated myself from studying malaysian legal system.i was reading and replying tweets back and forth.the thing i regret most T_T and so i didn't had enough time to sleep.i stayed up so late yesterday reading through every page of this book regarding the islamic law here in malaysia and the customary law.then when it was 430 maybe?i forced myself to sleep cause i don't think that i can survive ctu without sleeping.i tried so hard closing my eyes to get me to my dream but i failed.yes people i failed to SLEEP.one of the most easiest thing to do in life yet i failed.i wanted to cry but i didn't,i forced myself for about 1 hour and a half and so i succeeded.woke up and felt so tired so decided to not go to ctu.i was so tired that i couldn't walk straight(literally).THAT WAS HOW TIRED I AM.i need to promise myself to get as enough sleep as i can get cause this can't go on forever.it's dangerous.
and i really hope the contract test happening this friday is a false alarm.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
disini ku berbaring tenung masa depan dengan harapan ianya bercahaya disuluhi ilmu ku.
namun dengan keberatan yang dipikul daku kini seakan akan menangguhkan perjalanan lurus.
jika diminta angin membawaku terbang ke destinasi nescaya semua ternganga kebingungan dalam tak terurus.
maka tiade lagi yang mampu membantu selain dengan menitiskan titik peluh hasil sendiri.
dalam mencari jalan konklusi,hasutan syaitan menebal meninggi.
ku alih ke sini dan kemari jalan Tuhan yang dirahmati.
akhirnya ku bertemu jua dengan syaitan yang di keji.
mengapa ini terjadi,soal ku pada diri ini.
mungkin kah kerana aku terlalu mengejar dunia?
atau ini semua hanya fantasia semata mata?
selamat tinggal dinia berjaya
dan selamat datang dunia yang ku punya.