i see a lot of lucky people around me.like hanis zalikha,she has a very perfect life and i do enjoy reading her blog,it's very cool seeing her travel anywhere she wants.and she's beautiful sangat sangat.hmm and like ramai la orang yang lucky lucky nie,i wonder if i would be lucky like them.people say,if there's a will there's a way,insyaallah,i'll try my best to get what i want.amin.i'll work my ass off weh.i seriuosly can't go on like this.huh

ott,after realizing that i was deleted,i literally had this new spirit in me.i just wanna change and start being a new me.i wanna get out from this body and start new.like seriously,i have to work hard on this."action speaks louder than word?" yup that's true.before even changing myself,i have to start lifting up the laziness in me like pronto.

it's 13.48 and i'm dizzy.hahaa ok so yesterday i went out with sheryn.it was fun,i had a great time.ALWAYS.smpai kaki sakit2 semua tp masih mampu meredah segala kesakitan untuk meneruskn aktiviti kami iaitu shopping :) i was a monster yesterday!i took semua yg aku suka without thinking what's left.nasib baik ibu x marah:) hahaha overall im happy that i had everything i want but one more thing!that cardigan must be mine walau apa pon yg terjadi and basically right b4 aku masuk u semula.:)

ok so what happened today was something i never thought would happened..heheh well not that GEMPAKZZZ la kan but still it made me smile before closing my eyes and dream.hmm so far all my wish had came true,alhamdulillah,i get to meet with these new people and it's so cool.having them being a part of my life walaupon singgah kejap je is something i would remember forever.so i'm happy with my life now.baahahaaha oh and this holiday boleh tahan best die:)

on the 1st day of christmas i went to pavi which is memang sesak gila gila gila!25th hari sabtu kan,then ahad ddk rumah je,monday keluar lagi then isnin ddk rumah,selase keluar dengan sheryn :) rabu ddk rumah,kames keluar ngan samsul n mun n tia n ecah jumaat x tau lg.hahah mm berbaloi la balik rumah.oh and done with my assignment,am so relief tinggal satu je lg kene buat 4 slide for presentation.ticket bus x beli lagi.bila tah nk beli.heh sabtu pulang ke kedah tercinta-.-

farhana! get ready to pump up the volume!hahaha miya mun kinah n liya.we're goin ridin.huh apa aku ngarut nie-.- ok la ingt weh nnt kita kuar sma.:)

list nak bawa ke kedah:

1. kasut sukan.
2. organic food.
3. assignments
4. laptop.
5. charger.
6. buku2 yg dibawa bersama.
7. pencil box.
8. and 1 more baju kurung!

ok i'm done.bye bye:)

ammused

i arrived kuala lumpur at 6 well most probably because of the jam,if not da smpai pukul 5 da i think,well whatever it is i'm home and i'm hapy:) *sbb x pk pasal assignments!:) hahaha okayyyyy my cousins are coming hoping that we could shop together later or maybe watch movies after:) i wanna shop baby!!!!!! i'm so freaking out y?idk .-. but whatever it is i'm just happy maybe sbb da smpai rumah kot.tu je nak ckp oh and i've been having this headache since yesterday x tau puncanya..haih

soon to be 19.

so right after reading sheryn's status which is 'new year what to do?' haa lebih kurang la,then i realized nak masuk new year da,kalau time skola boleh la tau kn sbb every end of the year cuti smpai buka skola,ni da masuk universiti,sem 2 pon masuk buln 12 so x rase sgt haa nk masuk new year..hmm cepat nya la masa berlalu.nak habis da 2010.huh dlam kenangan la semua yang berlaku.i'm happy that i get to know with all people through out this journey.i'm so thankful ya allah...i remembered when x dpt pnggln untuk masuk uni mase 1st intake,man,how sad i was back then.rupanya ade hikmah disebaliknya,aku dapat yang lebih best and kind of luar dari jangkaan,menda yang aku x pernah sangka dpt but i got through!asasi undang undang oh my.ingat lagi semua org ckp law susah.tu la yang tukar cita2 dulu.dayumm!i'm so blessed,pastu pula dpt jumpe dengan crew crew yang sangat best and never wish to get better.this is enough.yeah 2010 banyak juga kenangan yang best best.result spm keluar lahh masuk sini lahh,buat listening test yang x pernah tinggi nya buat muet.yeap!major changes in life.MAJOR!dulu time skola berangan dengan alia 'macam mana lah bila kita da 18 nnt masuk univ semua' haa tu dia!nak habis da zaman 18 thn aku..nak masuk 19 da,semakin hampir dengan dewasa.nnt mula lah laangkah yang baru waktu degree and da 20..wow and most importantly,syukur alhamdulillah that i'm still alive and masih boleh teruskn kehidupn yang serba sempurna nie.:D so tomorrow berangkat lah aku sam mun dan omi ke kuala lumpur tempat kelahiran hehehe insyaallah our journey akan selamat so doakn lah ye.amin:)))

i live in an empty box.

frankly saying i'm not that happy when thinking about home.i don't know why.now that i realized it.well before everyone's like,'weh x sabar nak balik' and all and i'm like 'haa aku pon sama!yay!' haa cm happy kn?but now,i dont know what's the point of me going back.i tell you it'll be practically the same everytime,smpai kl then happy then my mum ambek and then smpai rumah pastu ddk2 mandi2 pastu online,staying alone,semua buat hal sendiri,msg pkwe la semua my mum keluar meeting.the end,tggl aku sorg laa,and tu semua akn berlaku smpai smggu then smpai sini then ade test and huh!theres like no happy place for me.is this possible?or am i closing my heart to it.i've never felt so lifeless in my life before.my life is actually empty.

*this is so not true.bahaha am going to make the best out of it.!yeah!

untitled.

it's a cold night and an itchy one too,with all these flies!bikin hangat!habis satu badan aku ni.huh,tomorrow class straight aje eh,jgn main main.dari 10 smapi 12 then 12 smpai 4 satu subject je smpai 4 jam!hooray!:))) -.- pfft ponat lahh.

you were suppose to say it not spray it lahhhh!!hmm so nothing happened today,everything was fun,and all.tomorrow my class is packed,oh gosh.tengah kumpul energy ni ho.k lah nak out bye.

call me lebai malang.

so let me start from what happened on thursday,i usually wear this pare of heels u see,my fav heels,tp sepanjang kat sini x pakai lagi jadi nak la pakai kn,then i wore them with confident.saw farhana needed some help to angkt barang dari masria so i helped lahhhh.went turun naik tangga for a few times.then as i was going down this stairs to dining i stepped on a pebble and tried to like selamatkn diri,but it turned out the other way around.i fell and hurt my feet and my knee was bleeding and of course seluar i pon koyak.u know?!terseret diatas basket ball punya tempat tu,hurts so bad man.haih then i terpkse la jln cover sbb terkedek kedek kn g kelas.then after i got back from class pula,tukar baju and all and then nak pergi la basuh baju,turun turun da kira duit semua cukup then tiba tiba $0.50 i cannot masuk sbb die nak lagi $0.20 je.aku pon rushing la naik atas kn,bila turun pula,i have to put semula 2.50 ke dlm.i pon letak la.huh berpeluh aku,aku la dlm 2 3 kali naik turun then habis je kerja membasuh i pon pulang ke bilik lepak lepak then miyah dtg.lepk lepk g bilik liya pula.fatin urut kaki but jadi worst smpai nak jln sikit rase mcm kene carik tulang.everytime i tried to walk,i feel like my tears berpusu pusu nak kelaur out from my eyes.sakit nye x terkata.that night i slept at miyah's cause no one was in my room.tp still x boleh tido then i massaged liya if she is still around and thank god she was,so i kene naik tangga lagi hmm terseksa.then ddk bilik liya till its 5 am then lame2 rase ngntok went back to miyah's room to amek kunci yg tertinggal then pergi balik bilik.i switched on the lights and slept alone. the end.

haa tu dio cerita aku.huh panjang.so as for today everything is back to normal budak bilik semua pon da pulang and classes macm biase.and i cant wait to go home:))) 11 more days and still counting;)))

i wear white.

esok cuti.bahagia!:) tp x bahagia mana lah.hmm just got berita baru tadi that rakan ku farhana mira n mun harus dipindh kn ke mahsuri ala senang cerita semua budak masria 2 kene pindah sebab die nbak satu kn semua budak2 pre law.hmm so lepas nie x de sebab la nak ke masria da heh,huh benda berlaku sekelip mata je.apa lagi yang bakal berubah.hmmm well,i hope to do the best for this semster,no repeate.:) jap lagi nak ke foodcourt!:) hmm i just hope that things will get better,cause im so not ready for any big changes right now.bye bye:D

ding ding.wait what's that? -.-

3 more weeks till my mid sem break.gosh,i never felt so happy to go home.i just want my charger.well,i heard that my mum is planning to come here in kedah to see me:) but to think again,3 weeks is not that long,so should i just let my mum see me or should i just wait 3 miserable week?hmm am not sure.oh and lately,i've been a teacher to myself.i tend to correct my own mistakes when i write an essay and i sure need to do a lot more exercises.it's getting worst.kind of tired tho.alhamdulillah everything is finished.mock muet:) and this tuesday cuti for the awal muharam:))))

huge

i'm tired -.- huh,so any suggestions?tomorrow i'm free:) and balik mid sem semua nak naik train!:) mesti best gila hahahah can't wait.jeng jeng.hmmm night u ollss.:)

one in a million

alhamdulillah my flu is getting better!god,i can't imagine how i survived,but thank u GOD.:D so i'm still missing my laptop-.- okay okay enough about the laptop ueen,u screwed up get over it:) huh.so i have started a list of what to do during my mid sem break.muahahahah that shows how excited i am:) like seriously!i really want to go home.can't wait!!!!so ueen,belajar la betul2 untuk sem nie ok:) kekalkan prestasi.*aiceh-.-

chocolate is my favourite.

i can't sleep but my eyes are tired.this is killing me.i want to go home so bad and just grab the charger and left.how i wish there's a hole straight to my house.oh and how i wish i am a wizard.-.-*krik krik.i seriously want to go home.i miss my laptop so so so much.everyone is asleep.and i know i should too but i can't shut my eyes.really need some sleep now!oh i can't wait to cuti mid sem:D yay!best best!altho it's for a week,hell who cares as long as i'm home.lalala

never ending stories.

i am sick.so sick that my eyes are red and my face is dull and and and itchy too!not comfortable at allll!!!huh,my sisters are enjoying the night.watching movies with all my cousins.yeah not cool guys.not cool.-.- i can't wait to go home.4 more weeks to go before i can use my laptop.hell,if i have a boyfriend,he'll be so pissed cause i care more about my lappy than him.*krik krik ye ke?hahaha.ok la need to go to bed.class starts at 10 am!:D

today is 24th november.

today was okay.although there are some not-so-good-times but i managed to put them aside.what flattered me most is i get to meet takiya dinji!:)))) aww miss him so much man!well of course not me alone,together with kinah,alyia,fatin,munirah farhana and miyah.we were like 'din!rindu gila la kat kau!' and all.hmm we all can see the sadness in his face but nak buat cm ne.he's a very nice guy.but maybe his fate has been written to be this way so who can change it.we all hope and i personally hope that he'll get a better future out there and berjaya la kau ye din.kitorang PL2D doakn kejayaan kau walaupon dimana kau berade aiceh-.-*krik krik.

to sum everything up,alhamdulillah today is a fine day:D

my name is not weird.

i feel so empty all of a sudden.don't know why but i feel like theres a hole in here somewhere.i miss my mum.huh i just started the new sem and it doesnt look the same.everything has changed.the seniors are gone,the floor is so quiet the diploma students are not here,and part one students only consists of 13 students in one class,havent met the seniors,they're all like vanished,diappeared poof!no where to be found.its like an empty place.some of my classmates are still missing.i miss them too and i still cant believe that i didnt bring my charger for the laptop.oh my what a life.am so bored without my laptop.yes i borrowed this one from my roomie but its just not the same.i notice that im not that happy.not a bit.im just happy when im with my friends and in class.thats it.i feel err i dont know.omg,please stop.-.-

oh and my name is not funny u effin brazillians!stupid hooligans!-.-

last chance.

after a few lectures from my uncle,then i realized how bad i want to further law.he told me not to give up,but i remembered how i screwed MUET.gees,huh,i wish i had enough sleep before answering them questions.i don't even a bit have the confidence that it'll turn out good.this is my last chance and i blew it completely.damn.huh,i am so devastated lah kalau x lepas amek law.

moving on,i am in kuantan right now,my hometown.it's fun.:)

random.

this is a picture of me with mira when we were in wisma belia tengok gig.hahahah funny weh!this was in 2008,i was 16.hahah but that's not the point of this post:) so,actually i don't even have any point of posting this post-_-.but what the heck,i might as well just keep going.

my family and i and kak fatin is going to kuantan today.for eid mubarak.hehehe.will be back in kl on thursday and on friday am going back to kedah.huh,boo hoo.but it's okay i'll try my best to make myself happy.so i think that's it.bye bye.

i hope that one day,you will feel every inch of pain that we felt.oh i hope that ALLAH,will show you how many souls that you've hurt so far.it's really sad seeing you treating mum like your maid.what the hell man!she raised you for 20 years now,can't a small thank you come out from your mouth?you're a mean person,no one deserves you,only the ones that did the same thing to their parents deserves you.it's a good thing you made me hate you,i loathe you!huh,YA Allah,just add a little bit more strength to my mother while she is still breathing in this world.i love you ibu,forever will.and ayah,may you be among the good ones.i love you both forever.

thankful.

YA ALLAH,i thank you for making me an islam.amin.

too good to be true.

i know i'm not suppose to post anything sad here well this post is not actually sad tho,it's just that lately,i've been having these dreams about guys.it's about i have a boyfriend but i cheated on him,and like theres this guy i like and he liked me back and the newest is about a guy i knew recently .hahahah hmm well i hope these are not real.of course it's not real,if its real pon,i hope that my actual husband will be an islam.i cant take any risk marrying someone other than islam when im still not that good at it.mashaallah,y am i even talking about marriage?haih,wake up ueen,it's just a dream.relax.shish.

electricfying

muet is over.all worries are put aside and happy mode on:) but sadly,i think i didn't do that well and kind of disappointed towards myself but well i've done my best.and i'm just ready to take the risk.so,a week from now is when i'm going back permanently to my most precious UiTM Kedah.hmm so preparing for things is the first on the list.im gonna be so bz this week.raya haji,going back for raya, kedah and all.huh okay take a deep breath and do it one by one.

yeap i know.ceh tetibe je.hahah okay its been awhile since i've last updated.been bz with i dont know.*sebenrnya mls-_-.yes i'm too lazy to update.i feel guilty.hehe:) the websites i gave u guys on the last update was my must-go page.okay ni pon just a quick update yang x penting mana.chow.

peace of mind.

hello bloggers.i know i've not updated recently cause my obsession with tumblr and omegle semakin memuncak.hahah hmm come join me if you're interested britishmeanstome.tumblr.com and omegle.i promise you,that you'll get the fun of your life by joining these websites.ahahha bye dolls.

grey sky morning.

i just realized that i don't do other stuff besides being online and if theres no internet,i'd die,i promise u.omg!im the worst person ever!i only watched tv for 5 minutes cause theres nothing on,and most of the time it's me with internet..

soft drinks.

hey,so far i've done watching tv,done eating,skype-ing,tumblr-ng but not yahoo m yet.cause there's no one online.currently am listening to passion pit.and got nothing to do.gosh!need to find something.hmm.what should i do?so i've made a video of me singing hahah huh.i should stop now.:D

vigor.

as promised people,i did woke up at noon:) yay i'm a changed person,i kept my promise.hahaha,hmm,so list of things to do.

• watching tv
• eating
• facebook-ing
• skype-ing
• yahoo m-ing
• tumblr-ing

:) yippy!and also the only thing to do,hah,what do i usually watch on tv?easy,

1. E!news.
2. keeping up with the kardashians.
3. giulana and bill.
4. america's next top model.
5. how i met your mother.
6. glee.
7. ugly betty.
8. E!THS.
9. TLC.
10. disney.
11. HBO.
12. starmovies.
13. cinemax.

and basically what's been recorded on astro 999 :) am gonna accomplish this today heh *agog!*thank u thank u :)

hope the smile stays.

it's a great start for today:) but i'm guessing sleeping till noon.:) have a nice day everyone.

• omegle.
• skype .
• yahoo m.
• facebook.
• tumblr.
• blogspot.

all checked!and signed out:)

dear monday.

hello monday,lately i've been feeling pale,sad and empty.i feel so so less vigor.i don't know what's blocking me from happiness.or is it time for me to change?but i'm not ready.please please help me.i'm weak just weak like any other human being out there.i'm not strong to go through these things.lighten up my spirit will yah?

lose control.

yess i suck.i am an annoying person and i can do some stupid jokes but that doesn't make me a heartless person.i do have problems but some people like me for instance like to keep it a secret.yeah it's not good,but i don't see any good impact coming if i tell people lists of my problems.i just don't.but somehow,i can't control it anymore.i no longer have the strength to fake a smile under this mask i'm wearing.i know for sure that one day,people will know the real me,the delicate one,the sensitive and the scary cat.but u know what?screw problems!boo!

we are 1 malaysia.

i have no idea what's got into me hahaha but there's a sudden moment when i just feel blessed to even breathe the wonderful air on earth.i'm so proud to be a malaysian as well as i am an islam.syukur alhamduillah.apart from that i just realized that i've been so harsh towards the world.all i ever did was telling how awful my life is and this and that but never try to make any change.life is about making choices and decisions.even if u've made a mistake in choosing the wrong path,that is when the adventure of life begins.it's up to you to make everything as it is.i always give people advices but me myself pon macam x tau nak buat apa.so,as for today,let's make the best out of ourselves.good luck.no more nagging about how shitty your life is cause mine is just as hell as yours.okay?x nak x pe,aku nak!bye bye.

so i've been thinking,what do you lucky people usually do during boring time or any time there is.you guys must probably just take your car keys and blah ha.i've tried so many things to avoid me from being 'nothing to do' but none of it works cause i've been doing the same thing since forever.well,this all comes to one solution that i think is the only cure. shopping baby!

there's no point of me making a new blog cause it'll be the same old story.and i'm tired to even think about it.but am not going to post anything bad here so cheers for the good days to come.insyaallah :D

north london

this is my boring face:) i'm currently facebook-ing and chat box-ing with takiya dinji.hahah this man la.haih,hmm happy thoughts happy thoughts:)

starters.

hai :D i have deleted my old account so that i could start fresh :) i'm sure that most of my readers are bored reading me nagging.so yeah,this is officially my new blog:)