i see a lot of lucky people around me.like hanis zalikha,she has a very perfect life and i do enjoy reading her blog,it's very cool seeing her travel anywhere she wants.and she's beautiful sangat sangat.hmm and like ramai la orang yang lucky lucky nie,i wonder if i would be lucky like them.people say,if there's a will there's a way,insyaallah,i'll try my best to get what i want.amin.i'll work my ass off weh.i seriuosly can't go on like this.huh

ott,after realizing that i was deleted,i literally had this new spirit in me.i just wanna change and start being a new me.i wanna get out from this body and start new.like seriously,i have to work hard on this."action speaks louder than word?" yup that's true.before even changing myself,i have to start lifting up the laziness in me like pronto.

it's 13.48 and i'm dizzy.hahaa ok so yesterday i went out with sheryn.it was fun,i had a great time.ALWAYS.smpai kaki sakit2 semua tp masih mampu meredah segala kesakitan untuk meneruskn aktiviti kami iaitu shopping :) i was a monster yesterday!i took semua yg aku suka without thinking what's left.nasib baik ibu x marah:) hahaha overall im happy that i had everything i want but one more thing!that cardigan must be mine walau apa pon yg terjadi and basically right b4 aku masuk u semula.:)

ok so what happened today was something i never thought would happened..heheh well not that GEMPAKZZZ la kan but still it made me smile before closing my eyes and dream.hmm so far all my wish had came true,alhamdulillah,i get to meet with these new people and it's so cool.having them being a part of my life walaupon singgah kejap je is something i would remember forever.so i'm happy with my life now.baahahaaha oh and this holiday boleh tahan best die:)

on the 1st day of christmas i went to pavi which is memang sesak gila gila gila!25th hari sabtu kan,then ahad ddk rumah je,monday keluar lagi then isnin ddk rumah,selase keluar dengan sheryn :) rabu ddk rumah,kames keluar ngan samsul n mun n tia n ecah jumaat x tau lg.hahah mm berbaloi la balik rumah.oh and done with my assignment,am so relief tinggal satu je lg kene buat 4 slide for presentation.ticket bus x beli lagi.bila tah nk beli.heh sabtu pulang ke kedah tercinta-.-

farhana! get ready to pump up the volume!hahaha miya mun kinah n liya.we're goin ridin.huh apa aku ngarut nie-.- ok la ingt weh nnt kita kuar sma.:)

list nak bawa ke kedah:

1. kasut sukan.
2. organic food.
3. assignments
4. laptop.
5. charger.
6. buku2 yg dibawa bersama.
7. pencil box.
8. and 1 more baju kurung!

ok i'm done.bye bye:)

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i arrived kuala lumpur at 6 well most probably because of the jam,if not da smpai pukul 5 da i think,well whatever it is i'm home and i'm hapy:) *sbb x pk pasal assignments!:) hahaha okayyyyy my cousins are coming hoping that we could shop together later or maybe watch movies after:) i wanna shop baby!!!!!! i'm so freaking out y?idk .-. but whatever it is i'm just happy maybe sbb da smpai rumah kot.tu je nak ckp oh and i've been having this headache since yesterday x tau puncanya..haih

soon to be 19.

so right after reading sheryn's status which is 'new year what to do?' haa lebih kurang la,then i realized nak masuk new year da,kalau time skola boleh la tau kn sbb every end of the year cuti smpai buka skola,ni da masuk universiti,sem 2 pon masuk buln 12 so x rase sgt haa nk masuk new year..hmm cepat nya la masa berlalu.nak habis da 2010.huh dlam kenangan la semua yang berlaku.i'm happy that i get to know with all people through out this journey.i'm so thankful ya allah...i remembered when x dpt pnggln untuk masuk uni mase 1st intake,man,how sad i was back then.rupanya ade hikmah disebaliknya,aku dapat yang lebih best and kind of luar dari jangkaan,menda yang aku x pernah sangka dpt but i got through!asasi undang undang oh my.ingat lagi semua org ckp law susah.tu la yang tukar cita2 dulu.dayumm!i'm so blessed,pastu pula dpt jumpe dengan crew crew yang sangat best and never wish to get better.this is enough.yeah 2010 banyak juga kenangan yang best best.result spm keluar lahh masuk sini lahh,buat listening test yang x pernah tinggi nya buat muet.yeap!major changes in life.MAJOR!dulu time skola berangan dengan alia 'macam mana lah bila kita da 18 nnt masuk univ semua' haa tu dia!nak habis da zaman 18 thn aku..nak masuk 19 da,semakin hampir dengan dewasa.nnt mula lah laangkah yang baru waktu degree and da 20..wow and most importantly,syukur alhamdulillah that i'm still alive and masih boleh teruskn kehidupn yang serba sempurna nie.:D so tomorrow berangkat lah aku sam mun dan omi ke kuala lumpur tempat kelahiran hehehe insyaallah our journey akan selamat so doakn lah ye.amin:)))

i live in an empty box.

frankly saying i'm not that happy when thinking about home.i don't know why.now that i realized it.well before everyone's like,'weh x sabar nak balik' and all and i'm like 'haa aku pon sama!yay!' haa cm happy kn?but now,i dont know what's the point of me going back.i tell you it'll be practically the same everytime,smpai kl then happy then my mum ambek and then smpai rumah pastu ddk2 mandi2 pastu online,staying alone,semua buat hal sendiri,msg pkwe la semua my mum keluar meeting.the end,tggl aku sorg laa,and tu semua akn berlaku smpai smggu then smpai sini then ade test and huh!theres like no happy place for me.is this possible?or am i closing my heart to it.i've never felt so lifeless in my life before.my life is actually empty.

*this is so not true.bahaha am going to make the best out of it.!yeah!

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it's a cold night and an itchy one too,with all these flies!bikin hangat!habis satu badan aku ni.huh,tomorrow class straight aje eh,jgn main main.dari 10 smapi 12 then 12 smpai 4 satu subject je smpai 4 jam!hooray!:))) -.- pfft ponat lahh.

you were suppose to say it not spray it lahhhh!!hmm so nothing happened today,everything was fun,and all.tomorrow my class is packed,oh gosh.tengah kumpul energy ni ho.k lah nak out bye.

call me lebai malang.

so let me start from what happened on thursday,i usually wear this pare of heels u see,my fav heels,tp sepanjang kat sini x pakai lagi jadi nak la pakai kn,then i wore them with confident.saw farhana needed some help to angkt barang dari masria so i helped lahhhh.went turun naik tangga for a few times.then as i was going down this stairs to dining i stepped on a pebble and tried to like selamatkn diri,but it turned out the other way around.i fell and hurt my feet and my knee was bleeding and of course seluar i pon koyak.u know?!terseret diatas basket ball punya tempat tu,hurts so bad man.haih then i terpkse la jln cover sbb terkedek kedek kn g kelas.then after i got back from class pula,tukar baju and all and then nak pergi la basuh baju,turun turun da kira duit semua cukup then tiba tiba $0.50 i cannot masuk sbb die nak lagi $0.20 je.aku pon rushing la naik atas kn,bila turun pula,i have to put semula 2.50 ke dlm.i pon letak la.huh berpeluh aku,aku la dlm 2 3 kali naik turun then habis je kerja membasuh i pon pulang ke bilik lepak lepak then miyah dtg.lepk lepk g bilik liya pula.fatin urut kaki but jadi worst smpai nak jln sikit rase mcm kene carik tulang.everytime i tried to walk,i feel like my tears berpusu pusu nak kelaur out from my eyes.sakit nye x terkata.that night i slept at miyah's cause no one was in my room.tp still x boleh tido then i massaged liya if she is still around and thank god she was,so i kene naik tangga lagi hmm terseksa.then ddk bilik liya till its 5 am then lame2 rase ngntok went back to miyah's room to amek kunci yg tertinggal then pergi balik bilik.i switched on the lights and slept alone. the end.

haa tu dio cerita aku.huh panjang.so as for today everything is back to normal budak bilik semua pon da pulang and classes macm biase.and i cant wait to go home:))) 11 more days and still counting;)))

i wear white.

esok cuti.bahagia!:) tp x bahagia mana lah.hmm just got berita baru tadi that rakan ku farhana mira n mun harus dipindh kn ke mahsuri ala senang cerita semua budak masria 2 kene pindah sebab die nbak satu kn semua budak2 pre law.hmm so lepas nie x de sebab la nak ke masria da heh,huh benda berlaku sekelip mata je.apa lagi yang bakal berubah.hmmm well,i hope to do the best for this semster,no repeate.:) jap lagi nak ke foodcourt!:) hmm i just hope that things will get better,cause im so not ready for any big changes right now.bye bye:D

ding ding.wait what's that? -.-

3 more weeks till my mid sem break.gosh,i never felt so happy to go home.i just want my charger.well,i heard that my mum is planning to come here in kedah to see me:) but to think again,3 weeks is not that long,so should i just let my mum see me or should i just wait 3 miserable week?hmm am not sure.oh and lately,i've been a teacher to myself.i tend to correct my own mistakes when i write an essay and i sure need to do a lot more exercises.it's getting worst.kind of tired tho.alhamdulillah everything is finished.mock muet:) and this tuesday cuti for the awal muharam:))))

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i'm tired -.- huh,so any suggestions?tomorrow i'm free:) and balik mid sem semua nak naik train!:) mesti best gila hahahah can't wait.jeng jeng.hmmm night u ollss.:)