Monday, October 31, 2011

random so random

i wish i could describe things in a way that people can actually felt it.feel what i'm going through.unfortunately,i'm not that good of a writer.i only see things in my own perspective.people don't get to step into the world of me.i guess i'm not that nice after all.just when u thought you're that funny person,happy all the time n never take things for granted,but it turns out,u're the exact opposite.u only use these personality as shields to block out the ones that u wanna hide.there's no such thing as a happy person hoo there n hoo here.people with problems are the perfect package.these people are the real deal.people would look at me n say "u are always happy,i wanna be just like u".well guess again

fine

i apologize for my previous post which i had no idea people would read .that's a good thing for me.however the point is i shouldn't have posted anything bad.she was right,i wasn't thinking rationally when posting it cause it just happened n i had to let it all out.basically i'm gonna be a grown woman and just let it go.bai bai

Saturday, October 29, 2011

intro

hello my dear ladybugs :) so i am alone in this house.kakak is at work my mum n her husband went to melaka this morning n am not sure when they are coming back.so this post will be so random.before going to bed yesterday,i thought thoroughly about me.u know after getting the results and all.i'm scared if i have to repeat things but i've done my best.i'm so scared man.i told myself. if i opened that result n not be what i expected,than i'm just gonna follow the flow if i dont get law la kan.then maybe law is not where i'm suppose to be.i'll try something else tu pon kalau x fail la.if fail then i have to retake then only i can get through.lets say if i can buat degree but x dpt buat law,then aku x akan putus asa.rezeki ade dimana2 kate kak tia.i miss her :'( i'm just gonna try my luck anywhere yang aku dpt.although people around me will be like "da kate da ueen x blh bawa law" but the hell.that wont stop me.insyaallah.see if i'm with my friends,they always know what to say to make me feel good about myself.only they knew how i struggled.huh xpe la,aku da usaha dan tggl untuk tawakal je. i hope i got both english subject an A+.or apa2 sekitar A la kan.huh pliss la. betul ke kalau kita berangn jadi semakin jauh angn2 itu?x nak la jauh.dekat la D': haih

Thursday, October 27, 2011

nightmare/not nightmare

i woke up and straight away thinking of posting this post for today.it's about my dream i had last night.some part of it was fun and some was not so fun.i couldn't remember every detail but i'll try to tell u guys every thing that i remembered lah.

okay so there's this school similar to hogwards from harry potter altho i don't know if i spelled it correctly or not this school dibuka di malaysia.and like any one boleh daftar n ofkos me n my friends pon daftar la kan.first day was opened for the girls.so our hostel slightly looked like the ship from titanic and yes it was big.sangat besar.me fna miyah mimi n mun stayed in a different room.their's were downstairs n mine was above them.i noticed because i had something to tell em' but can't seem to jumpa their room.i went alone walking in the big ship searching for them then there's this room,where we can see the view outside was very beautiful tapi gelap.n for some reason i made a video clip alone there.eerrrrr.i was like running slow motion and like was so emotional well basically because i saw a guy behind me.he knew i was in the room n he came with me.just when i wanna go to the other side of the ship,it was too dark so i turned around n saw raja nazrin.raja nazrin was the guy.yeah i know.klaka kan?raja was mcm like pengawas but not pengawas.i dont know how to say this but he was mcm penolong all teachers la.like teachers pet?okay.but he was so nice to me.he asked me what happened n all.n he said "that's too drk come on inside" *tranlated.then came two guys to lock the door yang i was about tu keluar through tu.those two guys are my friends juga tp x ingt.the 2 guys switched on the lights.then ade katil king yang like digabungkan 2 sbb besar sangt2 katil tu.slept by some girls younger than me.it was one of the hostel's room.i thought it was a lounge or something.the room was so big.so imagine la every room dlm ship was THAT big.nyesal x balik bilik -.- kalau x blh tgk bilik i.ok not the point -.- ok so that was the end of my night in the girls hostel.

then buka la pula pendaftaran for the boys.all the girls whom i dont know from the hostel were there too to help or menggedik i dont know la.but all i know i was there with my friend.sblm tu we went to pengkalan iman to buy some food then i insisted my friend to follow me to take a look at the boy's college.okay,so bila da smpai,i must say.bangunan budak laki was spooky gila babi.it was like the hostel from my previous scool atau pon from malinja.i dont remember but i've seen that building. then there's this emo boy came to me n said "kalau bangunan ni buat bangunan c kitorg pon x pe." yup something like that.than,semua da blh masuk.it was in the night tau.kalau nk masuk u have to show ur number which was given earlier.me n my friend main masuk je sbb die cm da nmpk muka kitorg mase dftr kolej pompuan kn so die ingt kitrg nk tlg la kot.da berjaya masuk then we climbed the stairs smpai aku penat -.- there was a tragedy where a teacher was killed.i was right behind my friend then suddenly die cm cuak2 n said "weh aku rase ni la tmpt die kene bunuh tu" sbb ade stain darah kat tangga tu.i da freaked gila babi da.then suddenly nmpk perempuan pucat turun tangga while looking at us.tu roh mayat tu kata kawan aku.sbb kitrog nmpk muka cikgu tu.aku da cuak gila.tetba the same teacher tp this time pakai tudung naik dan ckp "ni bukan tmpt saya kene bunuh,ikot saya." pastu ku ngn kwn aku pon ikot la.aku cm nk pengsan tgk bnyk darah weh kat tangga tu.aku da takut sangt.pastu die bawa pusing lagi "ni tmpt saya gantung lampin anak saya dan..." aku terus tarik kawan aku n ckp weh balik jom aku x nk dengar!.then da balik turun tangga aku pon bangun dari tidur terus buka laptop dan bercerita.anak cikgu tu pon dibunuh kat situ juga.

takut gila ini mimpi ok.i dont remember who was my friend tp my friend from merbok la kalau x silap.ok itu saja mimpi saya.bai bai

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

continue

i will be staying alone at home rasanya jap lagi.im bored i could tell u that.i can't wait to get my license done.gosh finally dapat lesen weh.i can't believe this.it feels as if im a step closer to BLS.i really hope i get it through.YA ALLAH.excited much!so we have 11 more days to dapat result.hamagd!can't wait.x sabaq gak eslok ka x elok ka.nk tgk gak.i hope i did weel although mmg ramai gila hancus termasuk aku but having hopes will not get u convicted kan?man,time id flying very fast.i can't wait to meet my bitches again!i miss them weh.kalau x mmg slalu la aku p turun bawah dok lepak.smpai depa pon habih bosan tgk aku aih.x pa la,harap nnt kat degree dpt jumpa semua semula la.x sabaq.hmm ariesya kate,kalau kene reseat,we can choose from 15th smpai 19th rase.tp die pon x brape nk sure jadi x blh caye sgt la apa yg saya tulis ni.oh n november la ofkos.lps dpt result aku kene fly kedah la?tp lets hope i dont have to la kan.nnt dapat je bachelor.i've to work really hard.*yeah right*.aku ni da la kate x serupa bikin -.- tp i really have to.oh my tatotttt!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

movies.

okay i forgot to update about the movie night me n sheryn went to.we watched real steel n paranormal acitivity.i personally thought that PA3 was scary.lagi2 watched kat theater when u have nowhere to run.haha weh really scary kot.mmg aku x dpt tdoq cause when i closed my eyes i imagine it.tatottt.hahhah n real steel was awesome la juga.i was like literally following hugh jackmans fist when he was trying to help the robot but in a not-so-nmpk-by-people way.bahahahah kbai

Monday, October 24, 2011

look at me now.

hello readers :) this one i stoled from atyqahrose hihihi.so i think everything is true.don't u think so?nuff said.

JUNE=FINEASS
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

silence.

at this very moment,this one right now.i feel so lost.i don't know where to go.like every single burden is on my back and i can't keep myself stabled.i feel like talking to someone but the real story is too confidential and i'm trying to satisfy both parties.tears are ready to burst out but when i remembered the phrase "god will only give burden to the ones can handle" then terus kering air mata.then,just then,i pulled all my strength together and think about the solution.thinking too much will lead to stress and stress will lead to being crazy.will i,one day,be a crazy person?pfft drama queen.but still it's not impossible.anything can happen insyaallah.

looking around my house,brings all these memories that had been smashed into pieces.it's like when remembering things,all those pieces come back as one.there's a lot of things i miss.however,thinking about it won't change a thing.frankly speaking,i don't know how to move on.my past is so strong that i am not willing to let it go.it's still hard for me to accept the fact that everything changed.i am afraid of letting go my past.but sadly that's not the point for today's post.the point is,my present is not that good either.a lot of obstacles and walls that needs to be pushed away or smashed.my friend who happens to be a real good muslim,ones said "aku malu nak berdoa pada tuhan untuk senangkan aku jawab soalan,sbb mcm aku hanya pk pasal DIA bila aku perlu".padahal die ni seorang yang x pernah tggl solat.ni kan pula pada yg slalu tggl?thinking back about the statement she stated,makes me think that all these tests that kita lalui is a reminder for us to turn back to ALLAH.this is HIS way of telling us we should pray to him and don't hate life.we as human should catch HIM,and HE will give life to us.so basically,bnyk sgt ujian yang aku da dpt.yeap bnyk.and i should've opened my eyes earlier.the world is coming to an end.but no one has the guts to stop and think.sbb semua takut dan ber-enjoy is just another way of not thinking about these things.

what i'm trying to say is,bila kita diberi ujian,we should be thankful that ALLAH still thinks about us.kita masih ade peluang.peluang untuk bersama yang beriman di akhirat kelak.aku antara manusia yang take these things for granted.semuanya sbb kita x tau bila kita mati dan bila akhirat.semua buat bodoh sbb pk akhirat jauh lg nak smpai.but actually,it could be tomorrow.huh i should stop and turn back to him.insyaallah.and so all these burden,aku akn terima dgn buka hati.walaupon sepanjang perjalann die menyedihkan but i'm sure it's worth it.so let us change sikit demi sikit dari semase ke semase.i'm trying too.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

cheater.

i strongly disagree with the idea of anyone cheating to their spouses,partners or anything related to the act of cheating.i mean,which part of it is fun?even the word "cheat" doesn't amuse me in any way.is it fun seeing your partner's heart being crushed or smashed into millions of bits and u go around having fun with some other guy/girl.no it's not.why don't u guys just say it to his/her face that "i dont think this is gonna work out" if u guys can't stand them anymore instead of going out with some other guy/girl and say "look i'm with someone now,i hope u understand,see we're holding hands".it does not work that way.people will not accept such way of rejection.it's called CONFRONTATION.and this message is to those who are in love.some how i dont understand to the ones,that are already engaged.being engaged means u are in a steady and a serious relationship it's not the time for u to flirt with other guys.it's not fair to anyone.i have never been in a relationship but i'm sure the feeling of rejection is all same wether u're in or out of a relationship.cheating on your fiancee is like lying to ur husband that u did not spend rm 1000 on shopping when the money is really for saving.see what i mean?to me,ones u're engaged,u should lock ur heart.it's true that "we're not married yet,i need some fun".if u need fun,u shouldn't have agreed to be engaged at the first place see.don't play with people's heart when your partner is deeply in love with u.u should not give em' hope if u cant commit.grow up.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

topsy turvy

hello readers who are willing to read my blog yang x seberapa ni.u guys rock.mu-eh-eh-eh<== my new signature laugh.wadup people?no i havent taken any pictures yet,maybe on my next next next post.yesterday was my driving class.it went terribly wrong cause i forgot.and got panicked as usual -.- but after awhile when everything is recognized,it went perfectly fine pula.hihi this friday will be my jpj test.im freaked.takut x luluih.rindu glee la pula-.-

Sunday, October 16, 2011

oh oh

okay bnyk sangat typo.aku malass la nak tengok semula.sbb lepas aku habis type aku straight away je post.kalau rajin i read back,then i betulkan.tp kalau mls cm ni minx maaf la cai.xde nya aku nak ubah bro.u get what see.okay so here are some pictures i took randomly when alone at home.this is kind of what i do.

  • muka x ikhlas like "bitch you better get yo ass out of mah face or i wll stab u real hard" punya x ikhlas.

  • this one is "i'm trying so hard smiling to make my face likable" look.oh and the name's melissa

  • this one is my all time "cover girl" look.i cropped the rest cause u dont wanna see it.hahaha
  • this one pula is my "please get that prince to marry me like pretty please " face.

or i'll kick yo ass.

ok so im obviously bored.yeap,there's not alot goin on my face.cant really make expressions.but actually i take that back.i can.nnt maybe next update,i'll show u guys how many looks i can give.hahaha.gambar terakhir punya terserlah aku ade campuran india dan sewaktu dengan nya sekian.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

blame me all u want,im still diva

hello earthlings.beautiful earthlings :) no dont go all "oh die ni ckp hello kat beautiful earthling je,not me" on me.when i say "beautiful earthlings" i meant to everyone of us yang telah di cipta oleh Allah swt.so am currently listening to yuna's cover of come as u are.hmm.i was thinking about something just now but it probably slipped from my mind now.so yeah cant really talk about that anymore -.- so late i'll be having my "lunch" with sheryn.oh and b4 i forgot,my jpj test will be on this friday,then my last two class will be on tuesday and this thursday,wish me luck people ! :)

i really wanna improve my english skills cause i've dropped it the first thing when i accepted the offer to muadzam.see,u dont really get to speak in english when u're with ur friends kan,sapa gossip dlm bahasa inggeris if u're a true malay.hahah -.- well actually i blamed myself for not having the initiative of doing so.thank god i was selected for the english debate team mase skola xde la lost sgt.i used to be so good at it.damn.huh.so yeah that's actually the main reason why i choose to write in english.but as weird as it is,i only can speak fluent english when i'm talking to foreigners.force of habit kot.ish x suka la guna mozilla -.- oklah mls nak type.see how easily i give up speaking now?shiznit.

Friday, October 14, 2011

those sleepless night

hello.just when i thought i'd be more healthy then my sleepiness went uncontrollable that every time i feel sleepy la.this is so frustrating.i dont wanna get health risk at the early age.td aku punya mata pukul 4 td siap da berair.then tdo konon set alrm pukul 5 tp bgn pukul 6 ptg td tu pon sbb aku tertutup kipas then told myself to bagn ang go somewhere untuk tidak rse ngntok.however,berhijrah x membuatkan aku lebih segar malah mata smpai x blh buka da.then aku pon tertido semula -.-smpai pukul brape x tau tp yang penting pukul 8 aku ade dlm bilik dan tdo smpai ke pukul 1 pastu x mampu lg nak memaksa diri maka aku pon bgn sehingga kini.terukkan?cm ne eh?aku x suka cenggini.kalau x td boleh keluar ngn kakak.kakak x kerja smlm.haih i'm missing alot of fun ah cm ni.aku x suka.ni pernah berlaku mase aku kecil.excited nak raya smpai x tdo langsung.pastu bila tiba esok hari im the only one yang tdo.pastu semua naik kereta nak mkn kat golf club.aku tido atak meja beb.kepala baring atas meja pastu tdo.aku terjaga bila semua da habis mkn dan sepupu aku kejut.dorg kaa da bnyk kali dorg kejut aku.gila x tahap mengntok aku?ye mmg gila tahap maksima.aku sgt takot kalau benda ni terus berlaku.bahaya sgt da.da la bawah mata hite nak mampuh.gano ni gano?

Thursday, October 13, 2011

congratulations.

so before i hit the sack.i would like to say CONGRATULATIONS again to my dear best friend for the past 6 years(n still counting) Sheryn Aref for getting the offer to Manhattan School of Music.i am so proud of u man.u like wanted this since i can remember.it was ur dream and u got it.and i really think that applying for scholarship will do u better.man i wish i were in ur place right now.i dont even know what my future lies aheas.it's between i'm or out.it's always been that way kan. huh bottom line is.im very proud of u.i realy am :').goodnight babe.think properly.i will support u in any way.

Monday, October 10, 2011

dark really dark.

so im sure that most of u out there are well aware of the problem i'm facing with which is lack of sleep.i've been working on it and "it" refers to make proper my sleeping schedule,however failed due to the temptation of my beautiful well arranged room and my fluffy bed with all these pillows.aaaa syurga dunia kata miyah.okay too much info there.well the point is,the reason why i cant sleep at night and im quite sure of it as well is because i sleep in the day.see,when u can't sleep at night kan u like wanna balas dendam then u tido waktu siang.now tido waktu siang is something i wanna or the precise word is i need to avoid buat mase ini untuk dapat kan jadual tido yang sempurna kembali.time finals,sleeping wasnt at all dalam list.basically through out the week,x smpai 24 hours aku tdo.yeah that's right.tp finals x blh juga.daym -.- miyah just gave me some new info's about the dark circle living under my eyes.antara sebab sebab nya lingkaran gelap ni suka ddk bawah mata saya ialah :

  • dehydration dimana menghadapi kekurangn air dalam badan.
  • kekurangn vitamin c.
  • DUDUK LAMA DEPAN LAPTOP/KOMPUTER.
  • x cukup tdo.
  • masalah kesihatan
  • stress
  • keturunan/genetic.
jadi disini,yang telah saya bold kan adalah due faktor yang sedang saya hadapi.yes,i stayed a little too long in front of my dearest laptop untuk tumblr the sims twitter.mereka la yang membantu saya tika bosan namun juga sbb utama saya x tdo.i need to be back on the track man.ni pon jap lg aku pass out la.tadi slept at 22 terbgn pukul 23 sbb nak buka pintu untuk kakak and up until now havent slept yet.this is getting worse.sekarang mmg makin teruk.habislah aku.minx maaf wahai wajah kesayangn hamba.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

first

i remembered the first day i knew i got the offer to merbok.everyone was like 'congratulations"! we straight aay went to go for the med check-up.everyone was in a rush.i got the offer on friday and have to reg on monday.how wasnt it rush kan?so that night we went to IOI mall to buy some stuff sbb situ paling dekat.then habis beli semua barang,malam tu pack.then sabtu off to kedah.da smpai we checked in,grab some dinner and pergi cari uitm located kat mne semua.then on monday pon i went there.berdebar gila la kan cerita die.da la muka aku comot gila -.- then da habis reg semua went to bank islam semua.then balik bilik.ibu da nak balik hotel.so i pon tggl la dlm bilik.ckp2 dgn roomies.my roomates terdiri dari 2 org senior dan fatin same dgn aku.the seniors were kak kina and kak dira :) they were nice.best la lepak semua kan.everyone boleh terima my perangai so yeah ..... hihih

then tibalah my first class.ade sorg budak kelas c tlg bawa aku kat b3 x silap.then i first met adila pika and tiqah.they were the first three person knew i existed.haha then da lama semua.blh masuk kepala satu kelas.my class was awesome with a cherry on top without a doubt.the best people are all gathered in one class.hihih serious weh.every single person in my class cool gila semua pndai and x tau nak ckp cm ne.then habis la semester.

basically start dari sem sati aku jadi org yang berbeza.sbb dpt jumpa dgn org2 hebat maka aku pon nak ikot jejak langkah dorg.terima kasih korg :') love u guys :)

disneyland.

i forgot about how fun disneyland was.the last time me and my family went there was back in 2006 dekat Hong Kong.that was my last trip with my daddy.ayah wanted to go to rome,italy instead but i demanded him to take us to Hong Kong sbb mase tu disneyland due baru je buka.huh menyesal x ikot je ckp ayah -.- and so we went there.i've been to disneyland three times and were all located in different places.my first was disneyland paris.yup that was our first.mase tu masuk masa nak peatang da sbb it was quite far from our hotel.kene naik train sana sini then alhamdullah smpai.semua sbb ayah nak juga bawa sana :').then my second was in hong kong and latest back in 2007 dekat tokyo sbb ade exchange student programme tu.itu mase dpt shopping dengan sheryn and we have met some really cool people sangat sangat :)

basically the reason i'm talking about this is just to make me remember.i dont wanna forget about these happy moments.i just scrolled my tumblr dashboard and found alot of disneyland merchandises punya pictures and the vibe came back to me.how happy i was back then.T_T thank you ALLAH for the opportunity.thank u for leting me step foot dekat negara asing once.and insyaallah,i might be furthering my studies there who knows.wallahu'alam.thank u ayah for the memories.i'll keep it safe in the back of my head :)

all signs points to yes.

a lot of my friends and especially my mom duh -.- are encouraging me to find a job that suits me.well i'm sure there's no job that suits me ifuknowwhatimean hihi x x gurau.i am actually thinking of getting a job.my sister has proposed a job at the place she's currently working at which is to be a receptionist in a hotel.i'll have to wear skirts and hair tied up though that is merely the opposite side of me.i'll be considering her offer while at the mean time i'll be focusing on getting my license done. months of living in this house is a long way to go.so i might need to listen to these people's advices and opinions.i gotta stop day dreaming.literally.

this is wrong.

this is not how i want my life to be.everything seems to fall apart perfectly .it's very frustrating bluntly speaking.i never changed although that is what my heart desires.why cant i even keep a promise to myself?i think the word for me is disciplined.but how ought i achieve such thing?okay.so next week will be my driving class.so that makes a small change in me.then insyaallah i'll get my own car then maybe then will i have loads of changes?well fingers crossed definitely.i'm so scared to ho for my jpj test man.but the hell imma rock it!:) there u go.a little bit of energy boost.so rumors are saying that our results will be out on the 4th novem.which will be in less than a month from now.i'm getting butterflies in a bad way.i'm so scared to whats in it for me.will suck or otherwise?yes ariesya,i am tired as well of being a loser.haih how la?i cant believe of how stupid i was thinking that everything will be okay.things will never be okay if i'm still me.i need to make changes. license is first in the list forsho.i need to see a little bit of improvements in me.but i did i had one.and as usual i blew it away.azureen.please.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

bernard

another day without a good shut eye.this is getting worse not to mention that my eyes are getting darker.why can't i sleep?why god why?!hihi okay bosan.tggu gossip girl loading.best gak this one.i need to start figuring about me.i need to know which path im taking and where im actually going.haih ive wasted a lot of time oledy.i am such a loser T__T dont even know where to go.da la finals hancussss.man.feel like shouting i love u to u..errrrr.x x shouting everything yang comes to mind.tapi benda da tertulis.tu la yang paling menyeksakan.aku mmg turun mendadak la prestasi.adoi.i am not done thriving man.i needs to go further.i want my degree in law.it will be so devastating kalau the answer is negative.huh im not ready to let go T_T

Monday, October 3, 2011

teringat pula.

teringat dulu mase ayah ade,selalu bangun malam sbb lapar.heh.selalu bangun sbb dahaga.dulu mase dari barcelona nak pergi monte carlo or somewhere in spain la lupa -.-,i was in the same train room dgn ayah. i slept dekat bahagian atas.ayah kejut tetiba tanya ade mknn x.hihi pastu bagi ayah mkn keropok apa tah.x ingt la.cheezles kot.rindu gila kat ayah.dulu ayah pernah ckp "kalau ayah da x de,mesti ibu kawen lain". ibu pon merajuk dgn ayah pastu gaduh.but that was what happened.benda yang x nak jadi nak.benda yang x nak dilupakan.mase akhir ayah da nak pergi,ayah selalu tidur bilik ni.my room.x tau knp.huh funny how people go cm tu je kan.cuba kalau diberitahu,lagi la sedih kan.kalau la ayah masih ade dan aku tau die akan pergi.aku akan peluk die kuat2.heh rindu pelukan seorang ayah :').lama da aku x peluk seorang ketua keluarga.seorang ayah.perkataan ayah pon aku da lama x sebut.siap lupa cm ne kasih syg seorang ayah.bila dgr kwn2 cerita rase best sgt.tp kalau ade yang slalu gaduh ngn ayah dorg ke aku rase cm x perlu la kot buat cm tu.tp ye la we take things for granted.aku pon cm kurang hargai ibu aku.tapi cm ne hidup aku tanpa lagi sorg wira hidup aku?aku x tau la.peninggalan seorg pon aku cm susah gila nk terima.haih aku min panjangkanlah usia ibu aku YA ALLAH.kalau apa yang die dpt skang ni buat die gembira.xpe la,aku biarkan.haih emo pula aku -.- aku nak je pijak tempat org lagi.mcm dulu.tapi mesti lain bila ayah da xde.aku tau x baik ingt paasal org yang da xde.tapi aku rindu.rindu yang teramat.walaupon aku x rapat dengan ayah aku dulu.tp kehilangn die telah mengubah hidup aku.tapi x tau la kearah positive atau negative.aku x dpt pon ralisasikan hajat untuk ke kubur ayah sblm habis semster.x de mase smpai la habis.nnt kalau dpt shah alam.lagi susah nak pergi.i dreamt about ayah yesterday.mimpi ayah pakai iphone.heh.kalau ayah ade rase x guna kot iphone.biase la business man.bb pon x mungkin.heh x tau la.x baik ckp kalau.benda da berlaku.aku redha je la.nk menangis hentak kepala kat lantai pon x kan dpt hidupkan ayah balik.ni semu ade hikmah aku yakin.cima aku x nmpk lg apa hikmahnya.atau mungkin aku da nmpk?wallahu'alam.okay la AL-FATIHAH buat ismail bin mohd isa.suami dan ayah yang baik,semoga ditmptkan dalm kalangn org2 yang beriman.amin

Sunday, October 2, 2011

sit down and scroll

hey bloggy woggy :)) howwa you? oh and hello dear readers.hihi so i had this dream.which involves many people that i know for sure however couldnt recall every single one.but the weird thing is,i had a drem about a friend of mine.we've been friends for 13 years now.i had a dream about him giving me a call.and we talked as if we're together.and when i woke up,i got three miss calls from him. coincidence i might say.my phone was off.and when i got up and charged it,got a msg from maxis.he called me 3 three times since 0259.but i charged my phone at 459.hihihi jadi cm hmm terbawa2 dlm mimpi.pelik juga.i sent him a text but he didnt replied.kecewa.x pe la hhiih

so wad wad waddap?i dont know what to do.kalau nak tgk videos nnt kene tmbh quota sana sini.see skng kitrg guna bb yang kene topup top up quota.jadi cm berjaga la sikit online tu.ala guna plan tu la.bkn nya aku beli bb yg sedia ade die punya quota tu.get what i mean?mls nk ulang.i wanna watch some movies la.-.- tetapi btl2 x reti nak proper download -.- main angry birds la.kbai

Saturday, October 1, 2011

i have a dream

aku takut gila x lepas shah alam.paper law ni la.x pon kesemua paper yang ade untuk sem ni.satu repeat meaning harapan ke shah alam mmg punah.haih kenapa semua kene jadi sem akhir?mostly i blame myself la kan.haih.betul betul nak realisasikan impian duduk rumah sewa with the perfect 7.with all 7 girls tu.tapi aku takut gila.lepas ke x?saya tangat tatotttttt.kalau x dpt nak amek apa ha machaaa?hmm kene pikiaq ni.

scared.

now aku takut pasal paper law 3.aku lepas ke x ni???!!!doa doa doa.