sedar diri.

being a person liked by everyone is hard.harder than choosing baju untuk keluar-.- but living is not about pleasing others but again kalau kita baik ngn org,org akn baik ngn kita.so in this case,semua kita buat kene la sederhana.kadang2 kalau nk please org je,org akn pijak kepala kn,jadi,kene tegas sikit la.we have to have our own stand.cant be easily influenced by others.like me-.- i am so easily influenced that i can like something senang gila walaupon benda tu i hate,kalau org lain suka.faham x?meaning cm kalau org tu suka but i dont,then that person gtau knp die suka then i tend to consider apa dorg fikir that i'll change my mind for instant.gila xde pendirian kn.i need to find my identity.it's very important for someone to search for their identity.sbb takut cm kadang2 kita buat tu,tapi x suka then when u do something u like n feel comfy about it,u'll get confused with the other option.believe me.i dont have that much of an experience but i am willing to share what i personally think.which i'd say most of us think the same kn.or nth la.

the thing i like most is predicting my future.what will it be like?will i get to sambung my degree in law?will i get the perfect score for my last sem?will i get to stay in shah alam with the girls?will i get the dream house i've always wanted?the husband to tc of me?hmmm bnyk gila la lagi yang dlm kepala ni.gila kn.its true la what people say.enough is never enough.haih.azureen.kau berdoa je la bnyk2 moga2 kau dtmptkn ditmpt yang kau nk n insyaallah could make ur parents proud.amin

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i dont know what to talk about actually cause theres nothing to talk about.hihi ni update pon sebab samsul da menyeru.n one more thing,da lama pon x update.so heres the catch.siangtadi i watched remember me movie dan sangat best :( it was very moving weh.i like that kind of a movie which shows about the world,like what we do when other people do certain things.haa cm tu la.x paham?then i dont have any other way to describe it.its just the nature of life hmmm.sekarang nk ckp pasl apa?mls nk type la.hmmmmmmmmmm haa tomorrow i wanna buy some shoes :)) yay! :))))))) cant wait n then baju kat cotton on ok da.huh oh n cadar n selimut.da habis cerita.kau mampu samsul??haa x.hmm bila nk blnje aku??kbai

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hello readers *which i doubt there is any* but anyhoo,i don't know what to think,feel or talk about.okay,memang banyak yang aku pk tapi semua cm aku x nak pk.it's all personal and i need to talk to someone about it.i can't keep this feeling forever.i wanna try to confront that person,but i tend to breakdown and cry.T__T haih tolong la kuat sikit azureen.haa and then when i jadi happy balik,die jadi cm "ala benda kecik je,buat apa nak fikir" then bila sedih baru nak cari org and it goes over and over.i really do have a split personality.klabai

smiley.

it's over whelming knowing that there are people who appreciate u the way u are. :) i'll try my best to be a better person insyaallah :)

nice smell.

ain't it a lovely night?well i mean morning but still,today is quite cold despite the fact that the aircond was on the whole day,i actually think today will be a good start for everything,at least hoped it'll be :) i haven't slept yet since yesterday.there's more than millions of things running in my head.some negative,some of course positive which i hope will remain definite infinity.i'd say that i'm negative type of person,which basically means i tend to think about the bad things instead of good ones.i really don't know how to scrap that off.i don't like being negative all the time but that is exactly what i do consciously.it's like running through my veins.it's just me,or that can i change?but eventually,it'll happen without knowing it's happening. reading this back la kan,show's how i'm lack of vocab and that i need to improve my english and be a confident speaker.need to start pumping.

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okay aku berasa sangat malu hari ini.-.- dan smlm tapi yang smlm aku da lupa then jadi pula hari ini makanya malu smlm dibawa pada hari ini.-.-

starring :

1. me as me.
2. the mail man as the mail man.

so as u all can see or know,we teenagers tnd to over sleep and i mean bangun smpai afternoon.betul?or is it just me?pfft.fine,but betul la kan mostly?well,sejak habis final buln 3 dulu.i went home n got this problem through out the month which is tdo lmbt.tapi smpi buln 4,tido aku da smkn teratur.namun akhir2 bulan 5 ni jadi semula,sbb mak n akak aku yg second is in kuantan,so tggl aku n akak sulong aku je n when she works ot,i have to stay at home alone.n i hate to break the news here,but my house always happen something not cool if u know what i mean.so moving on about what happened.so i will wait until it's day light then i'll sleep.haha penakut.

let's start from yesterday.i slept at maybe 4am and got up by the sound of the doorbell.and was like "what?who's that at the door?" asking my sister,then intai kat hole di pintu,of course the mail man.i ran to my sister in hoping that she could open the door la kn but instead she reversed psychology me and i end up opening the door myself.*okay bukn la reverese mana just buka je -.-* okay then i pon buka.tetapi sedikit saje x nk bg die nmpk sgt.then die pndg aku agk lama then tanya "rumah puan rahimah" and i nodded la kn,then die berdiri n gave me that thingy to sign semua la suddenly..."baru bangun tdo ke wak?" hamagad,malu!haih kalau iye pon x yah la tegur.aku sgt malu namun dengan gelak sedikit sbgai jwpn pada soalan yang x ptt itu -.- then i ran back in to sign n smpt cerita kat kakak yang i malu.and then i went back to the door to give him that thingy n "haa pergi mandi tu eh" smbil ktawa.pergh!tmparan hebat.aku ckp terima kasih dan gelak he he he n ttp pintu.cerita la semua kat akk aku,then tertdo balik*bgn pukul 2 pula*-.- pastu semua jadi normal semula,pergi bayar bill then teman kakak shop lepak startbucks pastu mlm tengok fast n furious which was drop dead awesome!harus di tonton ye rakan rakan diluar sana.

okay and for today,the same thing happened except he came at 2 minutes to 12.haih.aku pon pergi intai.aduh past laju lagi.then pergi tandas cuci muka bajet muka da mandi.dan buka pintu dengan lebih confident dari smlm pastu pintu pon dibuka luas sikit "dayumm!org sama bai!knp engkau?".seperti biase die pndg lama masa ddk tu,dan berkata "wak lmbt la wak,tapi x pe.sign je la*then bg aku satu kerts* haa ni tlg buang pastu sign" aku pon sign la semua.da siap aku serahkan "awak,baru bgn tdo lagi ke wak" dan ketawa.haih aku betol la die ni.-.- sumpah malu tahap rase nak beli pavilion.aku pon sengeh2,lps die bg balik tu aku ttp pintu la kn,dan berlalu dengan "haaa!".

dan kini aku bertekad untuk siap mandi da bila die ngnto lagi.harap bukn org sama la kn.malu aku-.- the moral of the story,tdo awal,bangun awal dan mandi awal sekian.

can't hear yah.

after owning a white colored iphone 4 and a watch from marc by marc jacobs i surveyed yesterday,i'd be as happy as fuck.i know i've been saying the same thing after getting my apple and my previous phones but just gimme the god damn thing already!

gone.

i didn't went to yuna's secret concert.y?no transport thats y.but life must go on.okay,it's been a rough semester break for me.but i just hope that it'll come over just fine.tired is not the perfect word to describe my situation but sad,lonely vengeance might be it.everything is not quite like what i dreamt of but am trying to sought it through.i miss everything about life,love and nothing to remember about lost.however,life is about facing challenges n so what i've been trying to avoid is what i get.lost.losing is common now if you step into my world.i've lost my dad,my uncles,three of them and my mak tok.my tok wan was also gone but i didn't even get to know him ,so that technically doesn't count lah.dealing with losing someone is so hard but u just got to live life and overcome the pain.u just have to.these r some tests that god gave,so i'm just gonna be a strong girl n pull it off.kbai